Let 'em Know I Wasn't Crazy...

My fic isn't locked and I have zero intention of ever going back to lock it. If you want to friend me just for the fic without any interest in my (admittedly) boring life, that's totally cool with me! Otherwise...


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Sometimes, I'll leave a meme or general post that I think might interest the people who are only in it for the fic open. This sort of became my main journal on accident so I started F-locking the majority of my RL ramble/rants/various nonsense. I'm sort of a spazz that way sometimes. If you want me to friend you back, just shoot me a comment somewhere and be all "Hey, let's be friends, y/y?" If we have something in common (which we obviously do if you ended up here by way of fic), I'll add you back. Or, like I said, add me to watch the fic; that's fine, too

And, because I can't say it enough, PLEASE DO NOT crosspost anything you find here. I don't care if it's a meme, fic, or a ramble about some movie I saw. Please respect my privacy on that topic. Other than that, I'm actually kind of chill.

Well, I haven't spent much time on LJ or DW in... I don't know how long. It's kind of sad that the thing that brings me back is because I need to rant and I don't want to take it to Tumblr.

MCR is over. I can't say I've been there since the beginning. I was limited in my musical depth until Blink 182 somehow led me to FOB who led to Panic! and so many other bands, but even then, I held some weird distinction where MCR was not my thing until I got pulled - kicking and screaming and backwards - into bandom and fell a little bit in love with Frank Iero and his stupid fucking giggle. MCR was a recent thing, compared to Panic!, FOB, and Blink. I still adore them though. I'm glad I got to see them, more than once. MCR led to me meeting so many fantastic people in person (including one of my very closest friends in the entire world chellealistic [LJ]). For that alone, I'm always going to be thankful. Maybe that's why it's so upsetting. It's the memories.

It's always the memories that get you, in the end.

It feels like a PERSONAL break up. I remember it feeling this way when Blink 182 broke up (when we all couldn't dare to hope they would mend those fences), when FOB went on "indefinite hiatus" (when we all assumed that was them pandering to us and trying to avoid backlash by using the term "break up"), when Panic! split in two (when Brendon and Spencer were struggling so much with an album that we all started to doubt they'd ever finish and worried the short-lived TYV would be the only thing left from the divorce), and when TAI disbanded (when William going solo was never a guarantee).

It felt exactly like this. But we all got through it. There were tears and moments of weirdly acute sadness. There were discussions of how we'd never find music we liked again, how we'd never connect that wholly with another band. Maybe we didn't, not really, and maybe we won't. Maybe we'll always have old albums and concert stories that stand out as some of the greatest things we've ever experienced. Maybe we'll move on to fun. and Neon Trees, The Lumineers and Cartel and love them and everything about them, but hold a place of sadness about what used to be, about MCR and the glory days of old.

Maybe this will be a Blink 182 situation, and one day, they'll be back. Out of no where we'll have rumors of a reunion and a twitter announcement that they're trying but no promises. Maybe we'll have kids who will be into annoying pop psuedo-bands who will mock us for going to a reunion show and acting like teenagers for a band that meant so much to us but championed the title "emo" like a badge before "hipster" was a thing and those kids were even born.

Probably, we'll move on, in that way you always move on when someone you loved walks out of your life. It will always be there, but the pain will slide into fond nostalgia. We'll get there. Some day. It is not this day, but I promise you, the whole fandom will get there.

It may be a cliche but: Keep running; We'll carry on.

Because I'm apparently incapable of passing up something like this, I signed up for trope_bingo. Here's hoping I actually write some fills for the awesome prompts I ended up with!

( trope_bingo card )

So, while I'm not officially "jumping ship," I AM setting up my DW instead of only having it sitting there without a damn thing on it. I set up crossposting at least until my paid LJ runs out (in October or November). By then, LJ will have either redeemed itself, or I'll have given it up as a lost cause.

And just to be clear, I'm not even terribly outraged by the headache inducing, eye strain causing, ugly, user-unfriendly comment pages. I'm more irritated with the way they seem to be brushing well-spoken and legitimate concerns off. So, yeah.

I suck at tracking people down, but if you want to find me there, it's the same name or here's a link to my DW. :) And if you're only in it for the fic, here's a link to my AO3 (also the same name). I don't have all my fic there, but the bandom fic is current (I think) and I'm putting the Pinto fic up after the holidays.

And that's it! Back to gift writing! Happy Holidays, guys! <3

There's a Bandom Voice Meme thing happening (which I'm still in the process of listening to). I have no willpower and also nothing to do with my time so. Yay voicepost!

So I've realized I talk really quickly and ramble about randomness and say "um" and "excited" a lot. I'm not very shocked by this... so okay! Questions:

Think of this as a template. If you want to skip a question, go ahead. If you want to add your own questions or just ramble on about bandom or fanfiction, feel free! Just do a podcast or a voice post or whatever you can to get your voice on the internets for all of us to hear.

1. What's your username and is there a story behind it?
2. Where are you from and where do you live now?
3. What are you wearing? Yes, I am hitting on you.
4. How long have you been in bandom? How did you get into it?
5. Which bands are your favorites?
6. Which band members are your favorites?
7. Have you seen any of them in concert? Any fun stories or memories to share?
8. Do you have an OTP? What is it, and why do you love it?
9. What story do you wish someone would write?
10. Are you working on something for bandom right now? Tell us a little bit about it.
11. You've got fic open somewhere on your computer right now, don't lie. So go to one of your open tabs or word documents or whatever, and read us a couple of lines.
12. Say these words: Iero, haberdashery, LOLcat, flist, dirigible, halcyon, nemesis, ephemeral, languorous.


Bandom voice meme by chrssytna


Right so. I think I may have randomly developed a stutter somewhere in there. Whatever. All the love!

There we are <3

OKAY! Three days later, I'm finally going to post about Panic! at the Disco and Patrick and Foxy Shazam from Halloween. Seriously, this show was the most ridiculous and amazing thing ever. I already posted a really rambly thing on my Tumblr that I'm basically just going to c/p into this with added pictures.

The post is pretty image heavy behind the cuts so, just be aware of that. I tried to get rid of the really shitty pics but I'm not claiming my abilities as a photographer don't equate to something similar to my seven-year-old nephew's abilities to write a sonnet. Also, I tried to keep them in order, but I was alternating using my phone and camera so I make no promises. (Also, if I have your M&G pic, and you haven't gotten it yet, yell at me and I'll send you the link)

Okay. For anyone who follows me on Twitter, I’m almost sorry I bombarded you livetweeting the whole thing. But it was AWESOME.

( Pre-show )

( Foxy Shazam - mehs )

( Patrick Stump is a sassy motherfucker )

( Panic! at the Disco! Woo! (!!!!!!! for good measure) )

Then my camera completely died and my phone decided it had enough battery to tweet but not take pictures. Which is cool, it was the end anyway.

So, that's all I remember and is in no particular order. I have these weird concert blackouts where I forget everything about 15 minutes after I walk out the door, even when completely sober. Tweeting seemed to help, so there's that.

I feel ridiculously accomplished for actually remembering to post about a show. Maybe one day I'll post Travie, Black cards, MCR, Blink, and GCH pics. Probably not, but don't burst my bubble.

I should go do real work now...or at least fake it a little better.

LOVE! Hopefully, I'll remember to be around LJ more often. ♥

Title: All Washed Out
Series: This is What's Left
Pairing: pre-Brendon/Mikey
hc_bingo prompt: Headaches/Migraines
Summary: Sooner or later, the roaring hellfire living in the center of Mikey’s brain was going to melt his skull from the inside out.
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Physical headaches, unintentional mindlinking, side effects of scientific experimentation, imprisonment
Word Count: 1045
Disclaimer: Know nothing. Own nothing.
Author's Notes: This is the stand alone next part to the This is What's Left series shared with dr_jasley. All you need to know is that this is a futuristic AU in which Mikey has been kidnapped by alien (Udonian) researchers.

Waiting for the Burn Out
A Shadow of Hope (Gerard's version of Waiting for the Burn Out by dr_jasley
Reach Out, Scream Out

( All Washed Out )

Title: Reach out, Scream Out
Series: This is What's Left
Fandom: Bandom (My Chemical Romance, Panic! at the Disco)
Pairing: pre- Brendon/Mikey
hc_bingo prompt: Mutation
Summary: Nothing made the throbbing, pulling, stabbing sensations in his brain cease. Nothing even toned it down.
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: alien abductions, physical pain, mental pain, scientific experiments
Word Count: ~1000
Disclaimer: Don't know. Don't own. I deal in lies.
Author's Notes: This should stand alone just fine, but is technically Part 2 of the This is What's Left 'verse shared with dr_jasley. This follows Waiting for the Burn Out (Mikey's POV) and A Shadow of Hope (Gerard's POV of Waiting for the Burn Out).

( Nothing made sense. )

Guy guys! I'm still all spazzy hyper because I'm officially finished with my summer classes and placement. Yay me! And I refused to go to work today because this is the last week where I get to really just show up and do what I want (plus, I have to fucking clean the office. Our office is a distaster. I'm putting it off as long as possible). So I'm just randomly clicking around LJ, as you do. And yay a Bandon Pretend Dating Festival!

Like I don't have enough things I'm TRYING and mostly failing to write right now (the series thing I'm doing for hc_bingo fills, horrorbigbang, zombiebang, probably something I've also FORGOTTEN that I'm working on...) Anyway look:


Bandom Pretend Dating Festival!

Also on LJ

Seriously, how is that not the best thing ever?! No seriously. Best ever. If you guys hadn't seen it yet (which you prob have), you should go look at it. I'm going back to avoiding all the things I SHOULD be doing by writing fic.

Title: Waiting for the Burn Out
Series: This is What’s Left
Fandom: Bandom
Pairing: Pre- Brendon/Mikey
hc_bingo prompt: Electrocution
Summary: Mikey woke up shaking, hot, and screaming.
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Electrocution, kidnapping, physical abuse
Word Count: 1077
Disclaimer: Don't know. Don't own. I deal in lies.
AN: Part 1 of the This is What’s Left ‘verse, shared with dr_jasley. The whole ‘verse (which has the potential to occupy us for about forever because we didn’t have enough to write already. >.> ) is going to be housed at a comm we haven’t made yet, but I might continue to post it here just because. IDK, that doesn’t actually matter. What matters is that I’m super excited about this ‘verse so look for a lot more of it!

( Maybe Mikey just didn't give a fuck anymore )